so ya kno how i was in that weird mood the other day? well of course zach decided that he wanted me to come up to his room and help him with his academic plan.
now every other time i'v been to his room, something bad always happens (emotionally i mean)
so at first i told him no, then i decided to be straight forward with him and let him kno that i was uncomfortable going to his room cuz of the wierd mood i was in and how he played me earlier in the year.
but somehow i ended up in there, helping him with his academic plan.
as i was going upstairs my stomach started hurting (thanx alot roommate)
i was so worried about going up there that i was physically hurting.
i was ok once i got there though.
for once i was able to sit in his room and not have him make things awkward, i was able to have fun without flirting...
BUT...
i think its weird that he keeps talking to me now...
after the whole situation in the beginning of the year, he kinda stopped all contact with me
i think mostly cuz he knew i was mad at him and he had his girl in cincy, so it didnt matter
now all of a sudden he's always IM'ing me and texting me. and randomly coming to my room
i was IM'ing him earlier on facebook and he was talking about my status
he said that i write my status' for him
and i told hime that dont nobody be thinkin bout him
so he said 'you dont think about me?'
AWKWARD FOR THE GUY WITH A FREAKIN GIRLFRIEND RIGHT?!?!?!
so i ignored it, turned off my computer (cuz i was bout to take a nap)
5 minutes later, i get a text askin me if i think about him
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IS HE FREAKIN SERIOUS?!?!?!?!?!
i mean, i have to admit that i still kinda like him (roomie dnt say anything!)
but i'm able to put feelings like that aside, until he does awkward stuff like that.
so i just got finished IM'ing him alittle while ago and he (again) talkin bout my status
i called him a dork, so he says 'ok forget you, i thought u loved me'
and apparently i'm bold now and told him that was awkward
and so he asks, 'so you dont?'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF?!?!?!
he confuses the heck outta me...
watever, i dnt have time or the emotional stability to be messin wit him an his gf in cincy
ok, i kno this is kinda weird and kinda jumpin to conclusions but
i get this feeling that everytime he's havin trouble with her (like an argument or something) he tries to come mess with me...but i'm not havin that!!!
i'm actually proud of myself for tellin him that he has to stop makin things awkward,
cuz we'r not together and wont be because he just cant seem to get it right.
anyway,
normally tuesdays are the spawn of all evil
because i have class at 9, 12, 3, and 6
all of them are an hour and fifteen minutes except for the 6 oclock class which is 2 hours
now on top of the fact that my tuesday schedule is crazy, i had to wake up a half n hour earlier to meet with my case study group
i had a geology test
my rough draft (which was and still isnt anywhere near done) for my 6 page english paper was due
and i thought i had sectionals for flute today
but somehow everything turned out well. (thank GOD!!!)
i think i did decent on my geology test,
i got away with not having my rough draft for english
we got out of my 6 oclock class early
and sectionals were canceled!!
it was a very good day
plus i dont have BAI tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
lol, i'm in kind of a goofy mood cuz i'm sleepy,
i'm bout to go to sleep, so i can not be sleepy tomorrow morning so i can finish my paper, because the final draft is due thursday, soooo........
goodnight!
O!
poem time =)
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~Tender Teenage Rage~
Love?
Can you be in love with love?
I find myself always wanting,
wanting to love
and be loved
Will this get me in trouble?
I think it already has...
Constantly thinking about a boy
Not consentrating on what I'm supposed to
Like now,
what am i supposed to be doing?
Not writing about love...
How can I stop my raging heart before it seriously hurts me?
How can I stop myself?
When will it stop?
This tender teenage rage of a 14 year old...
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