not writing for an hour today, lol

ok...so its 1am, and i have a class at 8, and at 9...
soooo
NO WRITING FOR OVER AN HOUR TODAY!!!!!!!
i was really stressed earlier, (which u might have noticed from the blog before this one)
i ended up calling my mom (to tell her an account balance) and ended up crying overr the phone...
bleh =P
i hate crying, it makes me feel so vulnerable, and it gives me a headache...
but i'm glad i was able to call my parents, it made me feel alot better.
i guess cuz alot of the time i want to live up to what they want me to be...
and hearing them say that they will be proud of me even if i dont do so well in school makes me feel much better.
at first i only talked to my mom, but then my dad called me cuz he wanted to talk to me too.
and my dad has this way of knowing just what to say to make me feel good about myself, then laugh, lol
and i think it made me feel so much better this time because he didnt use to be like that...
before 2006 (which, that situation i cant get into right now) he wouldnt called back
he use to be a very inactive, uninvolved father, who was just there to sign my school papers and by me necessities.
but he's so invovled now and i really feel like i can talk to him now,
and i LOVE it =)
I love my family and miss them so much...
i think thats why everything just seems so much worse when i'm stressed.
i havent seen my family in 3 months, and i'm not use to that
the longest i'v ever been from my family is 3 days.
ok, like i said i have class at 8 so i gotta get off now...
sorry, no poem today, now time
~!~Ki~!~