i dont wanna study math, i wanna go to the party =( ...stupid finals

so today was not as productive as i wanted it to be.
i still have two 2 page essays to write for philosophy by wednesday, and a math final to study for...
not to mention my BAI and sociology (which i just heard is impossibly hard) finals on thursday...
plus...
i went to a party tonight, lol
i think i needed to go before christmas break, cuz its been a while.
the last party i went to was the POD banquet party on nov 21
so i needed to get away from hmwk/studying
watev i had fun, and now i'm going to bed
i'm gonna try to wake up early tomorrow... ya kno get an early start on studying
i really need to do well on my math and sociology final...
o real quick, so one day, after my roomates bday we went up to the 6th floor to visit an RA (once again not my story to tell)
now i thought, ok the RA's room comes befor zachs so i never even have to pass his door
well wouldnt u kno it the RA is in their lounge and so is zach
so not only was i awkwardly trying not to pay any attention to him
but of course the RA noticed that i was trying to ignore him...
grrrr him for knowing everything!!!
but really it was only awkward for alittle while, after a while it was no big deal
i trying to get to the point where he is like a stranger to me,
like i might glance in his direction but his presence makes no difference to me
but yea, not about to start talking to much about him
i think i'm alot happier and life is so much simpler without him,
which is very good =)
i'll find someone so much better someday...
well thats all, jus thought i'd give a recap, i dont wanna be on here all night
gotta wake up tomorrow...dueces!
~!~Ki~!~

ok, i'm studying for finals...
which is not very fun, but i gotta do it
i'm actually very proud of myself, i have alot done for my geo test
which is tomorrow =P
i only have one question left on the review sheet
then i can move on to philosophy, which is a take home final (WOOOO!!!!!!... no really, i wish all of my finals were take home essays or just a final paper like in english)
bt anywayz,
i decided to take a little break, ya kno facebook, myspace, blog, the whole shabang
yesterday was my roomie's bday!!!
and Christmas on Campus
the COC part wasnt that great b/c my roomates kid didnt come (the campus allows us to adopt children to walk around with and there's a carnival and shows and arts/crafts for them to do)
plus we had to perform wit EHS at the chapel which took up alot of time
next year i refuse to sing for EHS and i'm def adopting a kid
but anywho, her bday festivities were fun
we ordered pizza, watched dreamgirls and her parents ordered a cake for her that was delivered to the dorm.
it was alot of fun
i wish i coulda did more for her bday though
i made her a card and brought her a cute hair clip, but i wanted to decorate the room and stuff
but i got so busy with srudying and all of my art supplies are still at home
but i think she still enjoyed herself
today, my life is pretty much devoted to finals (=P)
geo for most of the day, then workin on some philosophy and math...
i'll prolly write again later as another study break
dueces
~!~Ki~!~

yea, i dont do sad anymore =)

so i've officially decided,
i dont do sad anymore
i have to much good in my life to be sad
plus sad is time consuming
who has time for sad????
and y would you want to make time for sad???
nope, def dnt do sad anymore, lol
God loves me
He protects me
He comforts me
He forgives me
He provides for me
He thinks i'm wonderful
and He understands when i make mistakes
my parents love me
they are proud of me
they provide for me
and will always think i'm great
my friends are fun
they like me at the least
they are there for me to talk to when i need a peer perspective
and they care
so if i have GOD, my fam and my friends
why on earth do i need to be sad????
haha
i love life <3
no more sad
i dont do sad =D
~!~Ki~!~

the end of the semester!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am not looking forward to finals...
ugghhh...
at least classes are over for the semester!!!!
my first final is geology on saturday
then philosophy and math on wednesday
and BAI and sociology on thursday.
THEN THE SEMESTER IS OVER FOR GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
man i cant wait to go home...=)
~!~Ki~!~

i'm kinda in a pissy mood,
boys suck
relationships suck
school sucks
finals suck
papers suck
professors suck
lack of sleep sucks
life in general right now just...sucks...
sorry to be such a downer but thats the point of this blog, to get my feelings out
and right now my feelings are bad, pissy, sad, angry, and confused as ever
...

~!~Ki~!~

so whats wrong with me????????

so i told him he's f'ing hilarious (via facebook chat)
and he told me that he thinks its best if we stop talking because him and the girl are getting really serious...
so this is my life, i get my heart broken so that he can have a happy ending...
thats great
so now my question is,
where's my happy ending??
where's my knight in shining armor?
where's my happiness?
do i not deserve to be happy?
and what am i doing wrong??????
i have nothing left to even say
...........
~!~Ki~!~

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this dude cracks me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so his facebook status says that he loves her!
LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after he told me two days ago that she's "technically not his girlfriend"!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
so he really must be confident in knowing that he can have everything his way
L-O-Freakin-L!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dang, he must not know who i am, cuz i dnt play that
ROTFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he is officially cut!!!!!!
i'll find my happy end somewhere else
and shoot, i have friends so i dnt need him
hehe
he is so funny...=D
~!~Ki~!~

i really just want life to be simple...if only for alittle while, i'd be satisfied

dang its been a while

everything has been kinda crazy, wit teachers tryna fit everything into the semester cause its almost over;

final papers;

and then the finals i'ma have to take in a week

but yea, life has been alittle crazy

I FINALLY GOT TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol, thanksgiving break was so fun and restful

i got to spend time with the fam, i took my siblings to the movies

{lol we saw HSM3 =) }

and i got to see my friends, ari, mina, and nae'

we didnt do much, we were just chillin over mina house for like 6 hours, lol

but u kno, thats how good friends are, we can spend hours on end wit each other doin absolutely nothin

i <3 fam =)
when i came back i had a ton of work to do though


i have a philosophy paper due today, i finished it last night


then i started workin on my final english paper, the rough draft is due today and i just started it last night, lol


i did pretty well though, its supposed to be 5 pages and i have 2 so far, the final draft isnt due until tuesday


WE DNT HAVE CLASS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


lol, i'm excited =)


anyways...


so of course there is information on zach...


he's been talking to me alot, like on facebook n stuff


on monday he came to my room just to say bye to me before he went to work


?????????????????????????????????????????????????????


???????????????????????????????????


pure confusion


then last night, he was IM'ing me from work


and he "confessed" (his word not mine) that he has feelings for me and that if it werent for his "situation" (once again his word) he would try to be with me


....


now wat the heck was i supposed to say to that??????????????????????????


no one is forcing him to be with the girl in cincy!!!!!!!!!!


no one said he has to be such a jerkface!!!!!!!!!!! (lol roomies word)
idk
the worse part is i still like him too
cuz we'v been talking to each other since the summertime (on virtual orientation)
so we were getting to kno each other then
so idk, maybe because we were talkin for so long (jus as friends) i developed alittle crush
THAT WONT GO AWAY!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >=(
y do i get myself into these situations?? i mean seriously????????
wat the heck is wrong wit me?????????
watev, at least today is pretty much over...
except for the mounds of hmwk...
O! GOOD NEWS!!
I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY NO MORE BEING POOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol {if you cant tell, i'm excited =) }
i dnt start till january 12 but i'm jus hapy to kno i'll have a job next semester
and i'm not worried about it being to overwhelming because my schedule is freakin awesome!
i dnt hav any classes before 10:00 and the job involves calling pples houses,
so they cant have me callin early in the morning!! which means no work in the morning =D =D =D =D =D =D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but anywayz...
i'm happy about that, kinda tired right now though
i stayed up till one starting my english paper,
then woke up a half hour early cuz i had to actually get dressed for class cuz i had to go to my meeting with my employer right after class
then i went straight to Artstreet for english class
then i went to eat wit my roommate and kai, then philosophy class...
and now i have hmwk...
i'm definetly feelin the lack of sleep...
i think i'll take a nap and start my hmwk at 7...ish...maybe...hopefully?
lol, no i'll do it, its jus that now i'm kinda tired...
maybe i'll blog again later {prolly not, lol}
dueces!

~!~Ki~!~